The Diamond Within - What I’m Learning About My Soul

“Our souls resemble a castle formed of a single diamond and containing many rooms.” – St. Teresa of Ávila

This morning in a small chapel in Dijon, I felt something that stayed with me all day.

I didn't find peace but rather an invitation - to look inside myself to see who I really am - beneath the noise, the performance, the image I try to create.

The voice which spoke, was gentle but clear "you are busying yourself doing so many things which are not needed. Just sit, look in side of you and know yourself"

it stayed with me in my mind for the rest of the afternoon.

Later I read St Teresa of Avila, the interior castle. I have read it many times, but never sat with it, nor really fully embraced it. I started with the first chapter, for me, it felt like she wrote it for that moment - just for my soul.

St Teresa writes that 'our souls resemble a castle formed of a single diamond and containing many rooms.' I paused and thought back to my prayer. It made me realise; there is more to me than I allowed myself to see. I have spent so long living inside my own head, disconnecting myself from these others rooms.

Right now, I feel I am currently running around the garden outside, busying myself and getting distracted with other cares and worries, which sometimes don't belong to me. There is more to me, inside of myself, inside of my soul, there is a deep value which is hidden in me which has never been nurtured or even used.

Something sacred, something just for me, for God, or for someone who needs it.

A diamond, a true value, placed there at my birth but unused for so many years. So many distractions, self doubt, worry, people pleasing get in the way.

This is the beginning of me finding that diamond, that value, what it is.

I am not writing because I have the answers. I am writing because I am seeking truth, seeking myself and finding that hidden gem.

Maybe the same will be for you.

Slow down.

Look inside.

Write what you feel.

Let God show you.

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